Another low. After such a great high.
Fuck this.
Things are yet again so difficult. Zach and I are still struggling just to get together with whatever's up with his ex. Then, on top of that school is pissing me off right now because I have too many things to do, and not enough time in the day to do it. Plus, I'm exhausted all the time and can't focus enough to do anything. So I'm falling behind and my teachers just don't care and expect me to just be fucking perfect.
It's always "Oh, you missed two days. But it's okay because you're smart, you'll get it fine." And then don't help me at all.
I'm missing school because I'm so tired. Also, I went on a school trip for four days, where every second was planned and I didn't have any free time at all, so of course I didn't do any studying. I get back and my first period teacher hands me a quiz and tells me to do it. I handed it in fifteen minutes later, blank. Auto-fail.
The funny thing is, I honestly couldn't give a damn right now. I feel so overwhelmed with family shit, school stuff, boy drama, friends...I've just stopped caring about all of it.
I just want to live. I just want to...sleep.
Well fuck this. FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK.
Oh, that feels kind of good.
There are too many people around to self-harm or purge...I don't know how to cope with this at the moment...I think I'm having an anxiety attack or something because I just want to run to the highway overpass and jump off it. This is too intense...but I have to keep doing my fucking homework because my teachers at school are all fucking perfect and never have any problems, so that's what they expect from me. Nobody fucking understands, and nobody gives a damn.
Fuck ignorance. Fuck them all.
It's seems kind of...ironic to say peace out here...
