Yay!

I succeeded today!
- 100 calorie granola bar
- 1 piece of toast (85) + ~1/2 tsp butter (I'll say 15)
- 1 veggie chicken strip (47.5) + <1 tbsp ketchup (<15) + 1 spray butter flavour (10)
Total: 272.5
AND I didn't have to purge! :)
there were no eggs :( so that's why I randomly went with the veggie chicken.
I'm so proud of myself today. I was sitting in bed watching tv, tired (but not very hungry) when a damn reeses pieces commercial came on and reminded me of the massive load of halloween candy mom and her boyfriend bought and are now sitting in my kitchen, AND of the candy bar mom gave me- sitting on my nightstand, AND of the bag of chocolate and rockets sitting on my floor that I bought with my sister 2 weeks ago on a whim, AND of the other crap in the cupboard- like my favourite brand of cheezies (crunchy and thick...oooo), ah caramels, joe louies, brownies, orange dreamsicle ice cream (my favourite), butter cream icing and chocolate cake mix (also my favourite), pizza in the fridge, and ritz cheese sandwhich crackers...:(. I swear my mom just stocks the cupboard with all my favourite junk foods just to make me want to binge.I was so close to announcing a binge- you know when you want it so bad you even convince yourself that it'll just be this once, and you declare it guilt-free and say you can get back on track the next day? I don't know if anyone can relate, but I do that a lot and give in, but feel bad the moment food goes into my mouth (see, it's never guilt-free). I was home alone, so I swore I'd crack and end up purging. BUT I DIDN'T! I didn't binge! And I feel so good right now!! Yussss!

I'm going to the store tomorrow. I'm almost out of diet coke :( (I really shouldn't rely on that so much, it rots the teeth)
I'll also grab some egg substitute, salad, veggies, fruit, and any low cal snacks I can find.

Tomorrow is a 400 cal day. Plan:
- granola bar (100)
- 1 piece of bread, toasted, with 1/2 piece of kraft cheese slice (~115)
- 1/2 cup liquid egg whites or egg substitute (60) + 1 spray butter flavour (10)
total so far: 285
oof it's hard. There are way too many calories tomorrow :(
let's see, what could I have for 115 calories?oh yeah, I forgot to add some ketchup to the 'grilled cheese' (15), and maybe 1/2 tsp butter (15)
sooo that now comes to 315... I'll have 85 calories to play with. I may decide to have a mini candy bar, which are between 40 and 60 calories, depending on which one I decide to have.