uhh...yeah

attempt 3 at ABC: failed
I had a sudden urge to start eating loads of veggies and healthy stuff, but when I started I started eating all the junk food, too.
Calorie count: uncounted.
woops.
And the worst part is I had to buy all the veggies and stuff with my own money (almost $100 worth), so there's no way I'm going to waste it.
I just felt really bad about a math tips today. I went in for help, but the teacher was busy helping her younger students (who, btw, don't even have a test or tips today, so it's unfair that she spent the time helping them). I felt so upset I basically declared ABC over.
Next time I start, I will have to get over these emotional instabilities.
I'll probably start again in a week or so, once all the perishables are gone. I don't care about the junk food- someone will eat them, and they don't expire, sooo...
Yeah, I just feel worthless right now. My math mark was supposed to save me from my writer's craft mark. I had a 97 going into this tips, and tips are worth A LOT of marks. Seriously, if I don't get a 97 or higher in this course, my chances of getting into the program I want go down the drain...let alone the scholarships I was going to apply for! :(
I fail at everything.


EDIT: I realize that makes it sound like I'm making excuses to binge- but no. I'm just postponing the ABC diet until I feel more into it (and get my grades back up). I'm still making sure I don't consume more than 500 calories/day. Today wasn't as bad as I made it sound. I had a few mini chocolate bars (3 or 4 I think), a package of ritz sandwich crackers, 2 packs of rockets, salad, carrots, veggie chicken, and a 100 cal granola bar. Total is probably around 500 somewhere, so it wasn't that bad. I also bought a scale for my bathroom today and I weighed myself half an hour ago (with clothes, I'll do it nuuuuude later) and I am 99 pounds :) I'm ecstatic that I'm back in the double digits. Depending on what bmi calculator I use, I'm basically around 17.4 (I got everywhere from 17.1-17.6)...Wow, I actually used 10 different calculators to figure it out...can you say OCD?