Okay so far:
Yogurt (35)
Subway veggie sub (~300)
1 cherry blaster (15)

Total (350)

No more, please. I really have to stop going out at lunch, and stick to the plan.

On a happy note, my drama teacher told me my audition was amazing and i got a callback! :)
I cant screw this up next thursday. If i make it, ill fast for a day. If not, two days. :)
_ _ _ _ _
Home, finally.
So I got home, and being the dummy I am, I asked my mom to go on my scale to see if it's working, so she tells me to go on after, and I tried to make excuses but she goes "I want to see how anorexic you are"...obviously as a joke because she still doesn't know about me.
so then I go on and she sees the number and tells me I'm too skinny and have to gain some weight. So I was like "it's not my fault the number is low". So to prove it to her I went into the kitchen and poured a bowl of chips and ate them in front of her.
20 chips @ ~10 calories per chip = 200 calories I didn't want.
Now I have the taste in my mouth and I want more. I also want chocolate and cookies and croissants and crackers and cheese and toaster strudels.
fcuk. If this starts a binge I'll be pissed.
Also, why aren't I loosing weight!? It's frustrating me to no end. I've weighed the same for the past week, even though I've been eating tons less than usual. It sucks, I want to lose just one more pound and I'll be happy. That's why I'm scared about bingeing because I'm so close. :(

A few changes for tomorrow:
breakfast:
- yogurt (35)

Lunch:
- 15 grapes (30)
- apple slices (40)

Supper:
- 2 fried veggie bologna slices (40)
- 1 spray butter flavour (10)
- 1 slice bread (70)
- 1/4 cup egg substitute (30)
TOTAL: 255
And that's a pretty big supper so hopefully I can stick to this meal.