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Today was bad. I had all that planned stuff, plus three bites of a friends pizza, a mini chocolate bar, 2 packs of rockets, a banana, 2 toaster streudals w icing, whole wheat dinner roll w butter, a few chunks of chocolate cake w icing, and a mcds small fry. Im at work now, so i cant count the calories. I tried and failed again at purging, sans sucess. Ill write more when i get home.

ADD:
Okay, finally home :) so tired, luckily no homework (yay!)
AND I found out I get a $450 paycheck tomorrow! Good timing, too, cuz my account is almost under $1000, which was freaking me out. I'm trying to build it back up to $3000, but it's going to be hard with the car and stuff. At least food should be good for a while >:)
Okay, so what I forgot to add was that for breakfast, I substituted the egg and cheese on my english muffin for peanut butter and vanilla blueberry jam, so that takes out a few calories, but not many. Today was horrible, and again I was left with an aching stomach. I've got to stop being so bad.
I'm not even going to depress myself with counting calories. Tomorrow is a new day, and I'm feeling the courage to make it count. (no pun intended.)

Okay, so the game plan for tomorrow:
breakfast:
- whole wheat english muffin (120)
- egg substitute [1/4 cup] (30)
- fat-free cheese slice (35)
Total breakfast: 185

Lunch:
(My friend just got her license so she wants to take us out. FML. I'll just pack a lunch anyway and tell her I forgot and don't want to waste the food. Unless we go to subway, cuz that's cool, too)
- salad (20)
- fruit (50)
- yogurt (35)
Total lunch: 105

Supper: (hopefully nothing, but I may just be forced to have something)
[IF NEEDED]
- 2 slices vegetarian bologna (40)

possible snack:
- 80 cal cheese pack

TOTAL FOR DAY: 330-410
eeffff It's so high :( I'd remove breakfast, but I've found I do better throughout the day when I have it. If only I could make the calorie count lower. Once the english muffins are gone, I can asssssuure you, it will be >:)

I also decided to not count liquid calories coming from milk and apple or orange juice. If I'm going to ruin my body, I may as well do it in the most healthy way possible. Although, that does not mean that I can consume all the calories I want. I'm thinking of making the liquid limit between 100 and 150 calories (especially to allow myself the milk, which I really need these days).

On a side note: We did a math test today and I did really well (well, I think I did). Totally boosted my confidence back up :)