Over it.

I'm so over what went down yesterday/ way too early this morning.
Turns out, it was all a dumb scam. (which is just sick. and ridiculous.)
I don't feel stupid though, and I don't regret anything I said about people being bitchy for calling someone else a troll. We had no proof at the time that this person was trolling, so it was uncalled for. The thing is: you never know, so why take the chance?
And then there was some girl who apparently went on and made a thread that deemed people attractive or unattractive, and that got out of hand. I posted on a thread about that thread (lol) and now I just feel like I was being a bitch. I didn't really see what went down, but I still pryed my way into it :/
From now on, I'm just going to stick out of it. I hate that the boards have been full of this stuff in the past couple of days. I never really noticed any of it before :/

So today, I'm having aweful hunger pains, I feel physically sick, and my head is pounding. I've eating fruit and yogurt at work (180), apple slices (40) with peanut butter (probably 180, I could have done without, but someone handed it to me and I didn't want to awkwardly say no :/ ), 7 saltine crackers (90) and a mini chocolate (40), for a total of ... 530? ohmy, that's really high. It's 5 pm and I have yet to eat supper. My last exam is in 16 hours and I feel sick and still have to study, so there's no way I'm skipping supper. My mark is too important to risk for one day of a somewhat satisiable calorie intake. I'm thinking I'll have a veggie chicken breast (180), maybe a bit of rice? no, no rice. But I may have something else with it. we'll see. I just need energy, and I need it now so I can finally study. :/
Well, this fatty is hungry, so peace out.

EDIT: fatty ate too much :(
I went on a chocolate rampage. I found my mom's hidden stash, and I made excuses. "I'm so stressed over exams. Just eat it and you'll be able to study better"...yeah right. Now I'm full of chocolate, crackers, vegetarian chicken, and a kaiser bun...and obviously tons of calories. I'd estimate the chocolate intake alone at 700 :/ god, I'm such a failure. I don't even deserve to pass my exam tomorrow. I can't study because all I can think about is all that food sitting in my stomach, making me fat. It's going to make me gain two more fucking pounds that will take me weeks to get off. I was finally starting to see the scale decrease, and now this shit happens? WHY. ME.?
oh god, I just remembered my drama friends are getting together tomorrow, and we're making dinner (and...eating it). I'm the one who practically organized it, so I can't just not go, and I can't go and not eat :/ What do I do what do I do what do I do??!? HOW DID I NOT REALIZE THIS SOONER?!? Oh my god, I think I'm having a panic attack. I don't even know what we're making yet!
Okay, it's cool. I can do this. I'll have oatmeal for breakfast, but after the exam I won't eat anything. fuck, I'm going for coffee with a friend. Okay, get a water and you'll be fine. She wouldn't notice anything. Okay, then go to the dinner and put something in every dish so you can't have it. Good. good. No having to eat.
ahhh, crisis averted.