but I'm recovering from it.
So I've been bingeing like crazy for a week. Seriously. So close to my binge-free december...and I blew it :(
So...I gained OVER 10 pounds... ugh.
I'm up to 105ish... it's disgusting.
Today was my last binge. I've packed up all my sweets and Christmas chocolates and everything and I'm bringing them to my sister tomorrow. She lives at my dad's, so it's not like I can just go sneak some. Then, I'm fasting for 2-3 days, maybe more if I feel I can handle it. ABC starts saturday, but obviously it's okay to have no calories instead of the 500 or so allowed. Plus, if I break my fast, I'll be okay as long as I stay under the abc calorie limit.
EDIT: I was looking at the dates for ABC, and I might be going on a cruise on the last week...seriously, the cruise ends on the last day. So I think I'll start the abc tomorrow so I can have a couple days on the cruise to experiment with caribbean foods and stuff, obviously without going overboarrrrd...haha boat jokes.
I just feel so pumped right now. I feel like a child on Christmas eve, so close to opening my presents. I can't wait for tomorrow...to feel empty and in control again. I WILL do it this time. I HAVE to.
well, time for bed, so peace out.
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