I think he knows...

I was in the grocery store with my dad, and I was having an extreme chocolate craving (I think that dreaded time of the month is approaching). WEll, I've been at my dad's for a couple of days to avoid the junk food at mom's and surprise surprise...dad has even more now. Today I had a bag of chips, chocolate covered raisins, a shortbread cookie, and a lindor chocolate in junk food alone (I was also forced to eat grapes and toast, and willingly ate a 90 cal bar earlier). Anyway, we were at the grocery store because he wanted to buy supper, but I knew I was going to be eating chocolate and wanted to skip supper to counteract the calories, so I tried to negotiate by having grapes. But he persisted, so I said "fine, grapes and an apple" and he retaliated by saying "No. You are too skinny. What, have you been starving yourself? You're wasting away to nothing. Yet all I see you eat is junk food. So, no... you have to have something." Well, I just thought he was saying that because he's not used to having a skinny daughter, but it was really embarassing because my best friend's sleezebag of a love interest who goes to our school was standing behind us and I was mortified. Anywhoo, I eventually negotiated eating toast with peanut butter and jam and grapes for supper...

So just now I got on the computer to come write about how much of a pig I am, and as I'm typing it in the link comes up in the bar thingy that suggests previously viewed websites, which means I dumbly forgot to erase it from the history last time I used it and someone else has seen it. I'm. screwed. What if the comment he made in the grocery store was because of something he read on this? And starting tomorrow, I'm restricting like crazy again. I'm going to gain back the control. He's definitely going to notice that, and I don't know what to do. I've never had to hide any of this before...we are exactly a tight-knit family, so it's not hard to avoid eating without people noticing.
My head hurts...that's what I get for eating so much god damn chocolate... :(