I'm so tired.
Basically, I went from fasting all week to "almost qualifies as a binge" week :/
All because work booked me 6 hour shifts every night, starting right after school until 10-11 at night. Then I get home and attempt my homework (which takes me hours to do because I'm so tired I can't focus on a single word). Then I finally get to bed. Then I go to school and attempt to concentrate, but fail. Then I eat food, thinking it will make things better. It doesn't. Then I go to work. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat....
I woke up this morning with NO depth perception at all because I was so friggin tired. My mom called me while I was sleeping and I went to pick up my phone but I couldn't find it, then when I opened my eyes I looked at my hands and it was doing this weird wave thing, so I just stared at it in awe for a couple of minutes before I passed out again. I felt like I was on drugs (which was weird because I had just had a dream that I was doing some pretty serious drugs :/ )... I also fell out of my bed when my alarm rang an hour later...
Ugh, so now I'm fatter, more tired, and even more depressed than before...if that's even possible.
I need a vacation now more than ever. Just two.more.days. I can do this.
My head hurts, and my throat hurts, and I feel like I'm going to puke. I also feel like I could pass out again any moment now. I had an espresso shot and an iced coffee (extra strong) at work to keep me from falling asleep on the floor, but I'm just about dead now. But I couldn't do my homework without posting an update first. It helps me clear my head and relax...somewhat.
I'm debating not going to school tomorrow and maybe calling in sick to work. But I can't, because a) I'm already going to fall behind next week and b) I desperately need the money.
I still haven't packed. FACCK.
Okay, I'm just about dead, so peace out.
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