It's been a week since my last binge...I think. I can't think that far back. But yes, I do believe that I haven't binged since last friday or saturday. Granted, I haven't been eating the best foods once in a while (i.e. a muffin on Wednesday, a couple mini chocolates every day...a MCFLURRY today -.-) but the important thing is that I have not binged. In fact, I've also managed to stick to only eating when I'm hungry, and about 95% of my intake is from healthy foods (and about 85% from fruits and veg). So I'd say that's pretty successful, no? I think I've also shrunk my stomach this week. It doesn't take much to get full now :) Still a LOT of work to go though.
Tomorrow is binge day.
Ugh, the dreaded Binge Day. I'm terrified. I know that I 'allow' myself this day to go crazy, but I still hate the way I feel at the end of it. I would skip this week, but my cousin and I had plans to do a binge day together (part of our New Years Resolution) I can't back out now. I'd really like to though, I've made so much progress this week and I feel like I no longer need the binge day. But then again, I'm planning to start a fast starting Sunday, so I may need this to get my energy levels pumped up to start the week. I work sunday-thursday, so I'm thinking a liquid fast will suffice (although I wanted to do a water fast =L ) So I'll stick to water, juices, soup, diet coke, and coffee (and one cup of milk a day). If that's too tough and I end up sick again, I'll add a fruit or veg a day, maybe two (or maybe up to say, 100 cals worth?) We'll see how I'm feeling I guess.
Okay, well, I'm really tired and I've rambled long enough. I think I've addressed all I wanted to...
I'll leave you with this picture of me in a bikini. I hope it works to show you that you should NEVER turn to junk food as a coping mechanism, because no matter how low your BMI is after being overweight, you'll always look like this.
Well...peace. out.
holy bathing suits batman. Is that you? You look really good <3 I like that swim suit. It's great you haven't binged, you are an inspiration! Because of you I want to try and literally not binge at least a week, I've been b/p'ing every other day for months and I practically gave up trying. So thank you!
ReplyDeleteStay strong <3
oh thanks sweetie :)
ReplyDeleteIt took a while for me to get to that week. I felt hopeless at one point that it would never happen to me, but eventually it happened. Just don't give up, and always keep trying! Don't feel like once you're in a binge, there's no getting out. For me, when I start binging I usually feel like my day is already ruined and I may as well keep eating. Don't let yourself think this! Stop yourself. I started letting myself have small bites of something I'm craving to decrease the chances of binging, so if you have enough control to do that, maybe try it out? I'm stopping that this week though, so hopefully a gradual reduction of junk food will help me stop eating it.
Good luck, hun! :)