fml.

Today I had a tim's egg and cheese breakfast sandwich on an english muffin (260) and a glass of chocolate milk (~170),for a total of 430. Today's total is 500.
That would be good, if I didn't feel a binge coming. I'm trying my hardest to resist, but I spent the whole weekend at the trailor (where there is only junk food) and we brought it all back up. PLUS, I'm sunburned and sore from tubing, and I feel so weak and shaky, so I know I have to eat SOMETHING. AND I know I won't be able to stop myself. FML.
It's okay. It's okay. I'll make it up tomorrow (300 calorie day).
I guess I'll have to make some new rules to follow if I want this to actually be successful:

- calories can come from ONLY low-calorie, healthy foods (few exceptions- say...once a week?)
- excercise 1 hour, 5 times a week at least
- to stay (somewhat) healthy, 1 free glass of low fat milk a day (don't count toward calories, does not include chocolate milk)
- eat only when hungry
- no meal can contain over 25% of the day's calories. also, I cannot exceed 25% of the day's calories before noon (this will help me from feeling hungry at night with a tiny amount of calories left and going over the day's count)
- If I go 10 calories or more over the day's limit, I will fast for the next day, regardless of what the count is supposed to be. If I exceed it by 100 calories, I'll fast for two days. If I go over by 400 or more,I'll fast for three.
- If I go over two days in a row, I'll start from the beginning.

Okay, let's see if these rules will help me stick to it. I have to be harsh on myself if want this to work. Hopefully, I'll be adding more rules soon.