The good and the bad

I guess I'll start with the bad...doesn't everyone just like to get it over with?
I thought I discovered a good trick that would cause absolutely no suspicions...no, it was a great trick. I credited myself upon achieving the best idea in the history of ideas. It was a sneaky little plan that went a little like this:
Look through the fridges, acting frustrated because I don't want to eat any of the 'health foods' we have, tell dad that I'm really craving pizza. Knowing he'd do it - not to try to fatten me up, but he always does that (buy fatty foods, I mean) for his kids. We all know he loves them, but is too proud to do it himself so he waits until we ask for them to go and buy them, all the while complaining. It was so easy. I got him to get me a cheese pizza and a diet coke. While he was gone, I went to my room and fell asleep. I knew he wouldn't have the heart- or the guts- to wake me after the stressful week I had. So when he got home, he and my sister and brother ate the pizza and he put me coke in the fridge. I figured they'd eat all/most of it and put the leftovers in the fridge, and he'd assume I came to eat a slice throughout the night so long as I moved the plate and tampered with the saran wrap. Genius, eh?
Nope.
I guess I completely forgot about two things: 1. My dad and siblings usually order a second, meaty pizza for themselves 2. I've been raised to feel extremely guilty about wasting food.
So, the next day I worked early and was surprised to see that my dad was already up. While he was driving me to work, I bitched at him for not waking me up for supper (extra points on the scheme ;) ) Then, he told me there's an entired, untouched pizza still on the counter with my name on it. The whole time at work, I thought about the pizza, not knowing what to do with it, but knowing too well I couldn't waste it. So, I decided that when I got home, I'd eat a slice. And I did. Too bad I don't have a good gag reflex; I tried to purge, but all that happen was my eyes started to well up and nothing came out. GAH!!!
Calories for the day:
- apple slices [not the whole apple] (30)
- slice of cheese pizza (I wouldn't know, but I'd guess around 400)
- granola bar (140)
Total for the day: 570
:( My goal for the day was 400
Goal for tomorrow: 300, I must correct it.

Anyway, on to the good news: I'm back to 104! :) I'm now on my way to perfection again!
And more good news: I went to chapters and got an ED book: thinandbeautiful.com
It's pretty good so far, I just wish there was more triggers and stuff. I was going to read "Stick Figure", which apparently is very triggering, but I have no interest in reading about an eleven year old's battle with anorexia- something about anorexia and preteens just doesn't match up in my mind.