Okay, so what that means is that I've decided to just go completely crazy over the next few days and not count calories!
The reason being is that I'm starting the ABC diet on Sunday (for sure now), and I don't want to get bored and give up the first week, so I'm going to do what I want until Saturday evening. Obviously, it's not an excuse to pig out and by a fattie. I REFUSE to stick that crap in my mouth. But until then, no matter how much it kills me, I won't count calories and *hope* I stay under 800 (my everyday limit). However, that's 3 days away and chances are I'm going to freak myself out and enter a fast or start the diet early. However, I feel like not counting cals for a couple days is the best chance of me succesfully getting started, and with a good start, I'll definitely reach the finish.
So today, I'm not even going to say what I had ;).
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On another note: my dad is driving me crazy.
He's always been overweight, but lately (within the past year or so), he's been acting all fitness guru and pretending he's better than me. As if. I hate it. Whenever I talk to him, he always mentions the latest exercise he did or the new organic veggies he put in the fridge. I'm all for getting healthy, but he does it in the way that sounds more like "Hey, I'm such a fitness fanatic. I'm better than you are." Lord knows the veggies sit there and rot unless I choose to eat them, and what he says was a 'good run' was a 10 minute walk with a few moments of jogging. I hate how he thinks he's better than everyone else because he put a few minutes of actual movement into his day and wasted money on health food he'll never eat. Does he realize that the fact that he's not lost a pound show that none of this is serious? AND he now reads Shakespeare and listens to classical music since he got his new girlfriend. STOP FUCKING PRETENDING. And the funny part is: HE THINKS HE'S BETTER THAN ME. Ah, that's rich. Has he seen me? His *almost* perfect daughter? No, he's too wrapped up in his own little thoughts that he can't see what right in front of him. Hey, dad, you're daughter is starving herself in her quest to be perfect for you people. Oh, you just got through the first page of Taming of the Shrew? That's lovely...Did I mention you're daughter spends every minute of the day judging and tormenting herself and spends as much time on pro-ana sites as she does attempting to purge the shit you fed her? Oh, you're going biking...How nice...be sure to get some diet coke while you're out.
Oh yeah, did I mention I finished thinandbeautiful.com? Not triggering at all, which is kinda what I like in a proana book, and the conclusion was really fast, but it was a really good concept and I'd definitely recommend it.
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