I just don't care.

Seriously. I don't care if I live or die. I don't care if I'm healthy or not. I've stopped caring about my grades, my family, everything. I just don't have the energy, or the willpower, to give a damn anymore. I just want to lay in my bed and sleep until the world ends. I somehow managed to 'lose' my ED. I stopped caring about that too. I still have odd eating habits, and still purge about 4-5 times a week, but I eat like a cow. Usually I wake up and eat toast with peanut butter. At school I'll have a breadstick, and some lunch snacks like fruit gummies, rice crispee square, granola bar, crackers. Usually, I find myself craving something from the caf, like a muffin or a soft cookie, and I rarely ever resist temptation. So that's one fatty thing that goes into my fatty self a day. Then I sometimes have a small supper (apples if I'm at work, maybe something like toast or noodles if I'm at home), and then have another snack (like raisins or something). I feel like such a pig =/ I just want to be able to not think about food, weight, body image, etc, but it's constantly on my mind. I'm already uber stressed at school and stuff without this weighing me down. I never get a single moment just to myself, my daily routine consists of school, homework for 6 hours (sometimes 5-6 hours at work as well), and manage to get a couple hours of sleep. Every.fuckiing.day. And now my family has entered this stupid family bullshit again... I'm living with my aunt right now. I can't handle living with my mom or dad...or siblings. I'm so fucking tired. I can't write any more. Plus, I have homework to do. Ugh...fuck this I'm going to sleep. PEACE OUT <3