Zach and I broke up...then got back together and broke up again..
So now I'm left here..alone..don't really know where to go from here.
I kind of gave him an ultimatum..by midnight if he doesn't take me back, then I'm gone forever...
But I feel like that's more of an ultimatum for me..
I feel like if he takes me back, I'll be happy (or at least try) and I'll finally feel like I deserve the life I've always wanted...
But if not..well, it's back into this hole.
I guess my ultimatum is: Zach, a guy who loves me and just wants me to be happy..even if it means he isn't happy. Or depression and PT: a loveless pit where nobody cares and you are your own target. A deep hole that once you're in, it's nearly impossible to get out. I'm scared for that. I don't want that. And I hate that it took losing the only person I've ever cared about to realize that.
I pray to God I deserve to be happy. I pray to God I deserve Zach.
Please God..
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