I've been dealing with the demon for over 4 years, and it never occured to me that there is a whole world of people in the same boat as me (sorry for the over-cliches).
I've seeked help from pro-ana sites before, but I never really cared much for blogs until recently. I guess I just got fed up of having this secret, so here I am, ready to share it with whoever out there wants to listen. I know you're out there.
I'm not really hoping to get any followers or anything, but just looking to vent about stuff. If anyone wants to listen or share posts, I promise to keep in touch (but no negative comments, please).
So, here's to my introduction:
I've been (undiagnosed) ED-NOS since grade 7, and I am now going into grade 12. I go through phases of fasting and bingeing, I still have my period, but I am underweight, so that's why I classify myself as ED-NOS. I'm starting this blog as a way of motivating myself further. I feel like if I post on this thingy, it may help me by finding a community and support.
To anyone out there 'wanting' to get an eating disorder, please just go buy a healthy lifestyle book. Once you're sucked into this dark world, it's hard to claw your way back out. As for me, I never really had a 'choice', per say. I've always been a perfectionist. It was never about being skinny for me, it was about seeking control. Recently, it's been worse with stupid high school/ family drama, and now I feel like this is all I have. I feel like it's personified into a nagging best friend; a strong love-hate relationship. It gives me a feeling of security and I don't feel so alone, especially knowing there's an online community of teens and young adults feeling the same way. On the other hand, as I retreat into this world, it shoves me into deep isolation from the bubbly world outside and I feel alienated from my friends. So, to make it short, if you aren't actually psychologically effed up, please leave now.
As to anyone else who wants to listen or to talk: I'm here.
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